Again today,
she spoke to me. 

It’s been a weird couple of days
and I find myself going crazy 
thinking thoughts I never 
normally would
put together 
but I am 
falling apart. 

And after an entire day of bedridden sadness 
I felt her nudge 
“Get outside”

And as my feet moved,
becoming connected to the earth again,
I could feel her reach right through me
up my pacing legs 
through my racing heart 
right into my mind 
and take control. 

“My easily consumed and distracted girl”

The cold bitter wind nipped my nose. 
I was finally fully awake. 

“You forget you have control. 
That this life is yours to make. 
You make the ripples, the waves. 
You do not let the wave ride you. 
As a daughter of mine
You embody the greatest gift 
The gift of 
C  r  e  a  t  i  o  n  
If you are overtaken 
overwhelmed 
anxious and scared 
in your current situation 
then, my forgetful girl, 
you simply create 
what 
you 
want.” 

And just like that, 
I knew what to do. 

Written January 5, 2020