I wish I could talk to you right now
Tell you I'm sorry that I didn't make it 
I wish I knew what your reply would be 
This emptiness in its place has me feeling, 
well, 
empty. 

I wish you could tell me a lot of things
Like how to keep us all together 
But lately, it's felt separate. 
Your absence definitely is known for these past two years
There's a lot of opinions stated
Not a lot of cooperation or resolution created
I read the will, and I'm pretty sure you wouldn't like what's going on down here. 

Well, would you?

(silence) 

Empty. 

The spot you left in our family is empty
Someone to lead us but instead the lead is empty
This hole in my heart is gaping open cause its empty
All these questions in my head, but your answers, gone, its empty
I feel like the last I got to give is draining empty
I'm digging deep to find my strength but nothing's left, I'm empty
I'm trying to hold hope, levels are low, its getting empty
What will I do when nothings left, when we are all
empty?

(anxiety begins.) 

Written October 5th 2018